Back in the spring 🌱 of 2021, I had gone to confession and was given the Rosary as a penance. I wasn't all that familiar with it, I waited until that evening so I could pray along with The Family Rosary Across America which is on Relevant Radio at 8 PM Eastern Time, which I had recently discovered. I listened to it while I was at work.
That must have really pissed off my devil 👿 because the next day, I fell off my electric bike and broke my wrist. It was like, during a moment where I wasn't paying attention, he kicked the back wheel right out from under me, and down I went. I was laid up for about 10 weeks. It totally sucked.
That's how the devil works. If you try to turn to God, he will be right there doing whatever he can to turn you away. He will find a way to distract you. He will find a way to hurt you. He will point out your faults. He will try to get you to focus on the things that aren't very important. He will whisper things in your ear that will remind you why you should be angry. I'm sure that he thought he had me for a moment.
I was in pain. It was all I could do to get through my day. I couldn't work, so I had a lot of time on my hands. I didn't have the money coming in. I had to have surgery. I had a big bulky cast that went all the way up to my armpit. I was raising a young child on my own. She was a handful. She was still a little too young to help me, although she did what she could. It was a real struggle. I started going to bed around 10:00 p.m. completely exhausted. So, I started praying the rosary every night.
I really began to look forward to that time, trying to pray. At first it was an escape from a difficult situation. It brought me to a place of peace, if only for a moment. It was a way to connect with God. I learned to look forward to that time.
Once I felt better I started to do it in the morning. Now, I start everyday by praying my rosary. It has become a part of my regular morning 🌄 routine. It has been for a couple of years. It's often a struggle to get through it. Especially if I'm anticipating something, good or bad, it doesn't matter. Especially if I have something major going on. My mind will wander, and saying the words become a little mundane.
There is one thing that I have discovered that the rosary is really good for, that is helping me to deal with a crisis. It's amazing how things just fall into place when God gives you the grace to deal with it. It's amazing how simple a solution to a problem can be when you turn to him.
Now, I'm going on 4 years into it. I managed to get through it on most days. Some days it's easier than others. Some days it's really difficult to stay focused, but even a bad prayer is better than no prayer at all. I simply offer my distractions to God, because that's how I take my worries to him. Most days I'll do it on my own.
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